Everyone who already supported you will continue to, and I think it'll be a relief for those who were concerned about the old policy. I'm... not really sure I can predict some of my unit's reactions anymore, though.
I talked to everyone who was at the game afterwards, because I wanted them to tell me their-- why they thought what they did was necessary. Santa-san immediately assumed I was going to blame her for everything and Loki-san said I wouldn't understand. Lucifel-san was the only one who didn't brush me off, and that's because he. He thinks that everyone needs a target to take their frustrations out on, and he's decided that it should be him? So he wants to "become a villain"?
[said in a kind of disbelieving tone.]
Nya-san killed himself while everything was going on to meet Lilith, and expected none of us to notice he was missing or care. In the game before the last one, Hera-san tried to threaten someone by saying that she'd get all of sensitIV to withhold healing.
To... a certain extent, I think? At least, we talked, and I think maybe we both understand each other a little better.
... it really hurt, though. It still hurts. I feel like I'm always scrambling to try and keep my unit from crumbling apart, but... maybe I'm the problem, because the people who've been with me the longest obviously aren't... comfortable with me? And the new ones don't believe I care.
...I'm not going to say that I understand what you're dealing with, because I've met most of the people in your unit somewhere between one and zero times each, so I honestly have no idea what kind of people they are.
But...everyone is different. If they can't tell that you care, it may be because they see the world from a very different perspective and don't know what they're looking at. I don't think that represents a failure on your part, though. It might just be a difference of personalities and views. Some people are harder to reach than others, but that doesn't mean it's not worth trying, and I don't think caring about them is wrong, even if you don't understand each other.
I think reaching out to people and trying to help and understand them is one of the best things anyone can do for each other in this place, and you are genuinely one of the kindest and most compassionate people I've met. For what it's worth, I think anyone would be lucky to have you on their unit, Anubis. I'm glad you are who you are.
I mean it. You're a really good person, Anubis. And if ever you're not confident about that fact, I'll just keep reminding you until you get so annoyed with me that you have to send Nine-Nine after me to beat me up.
Seriously, though, I'm really glad you were able to talk to Nya and start making some inroads there, even if they were just little ones. Remember that even small progress is still progress.
Do you think there's a chance you guys might be able to talk more in the future?
I'm glad to hear you say that! I think that's a really good sign.
I don't know anything about the others you mentioned... Haven't met either Loki or Hera, and I only said hello to Santa once, I think. Is there a chance you guys might be able to bridge whatever divide that's between you?
That's... probably more complicated. I want to think so, but I don't know Hera-san very well, and... Loki-san and Santa-san are very important to me, but they...
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Thank you, seriously.
Do you think the rest of sensitIV would be okay with this change?
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I heard about the last game. Are you guys doing alright?
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... not really.
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...If you feel like talking about it. And it's okay if you don't.
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What's the status?
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[said in a kind of disbelieving tone.]
Nya-san killed himself while everything was going on to meet Lilith, and expected none of us to notice he was missing or care. In the game before the last one, Hera-san tried to threaten someone by saying that she'd get all of sensitIV to withhold healing.
So. Um. Things aren't great.
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Goodness!!
OK WE'LL GET TO ALL OF IT BUT RIGHT NOW HE HAS TO PICK SOMETHING TO REACT TO FIRST, SO ONE THING AT A TIME]
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He died on purpose. Lilith revived him... something like three days later.
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S...so people can get revived on their own after all...! Thank goodness!
But... oh man. Is Nya okay? Are you okay??
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Were you able to talk things out with him?
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... it really hurt, though. It still hurts. I feel like I'm always scrambling to try and keep my unit from crumbling apart, but... maybe I'm the problem, because the people who've been with me the longest obviously aren't... comfortable with me? And the new ones don't believe I care.
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...I'm not going to say that I understand what you're dealing with, because I've met most of the people in your unit somewhere between one and zero times each, so I honestly have no idea what kind of people they are.
But...everyone is different. If they can't tell that you care, it may be because they see the world from a very different perspective and don't know what they're looking at. I don't think that represents a failure on your part, though. It might just be a difference of personalities and views. Some people are harder to reach than others, but that doesn't mean it's not worth trying, and I don't think caring about them is wrong, even if you don't understand each other.
I think reaching out to people and trying to help and understand them is one of the best things anyone can do for each other in this place, and you are genuinely one of the kindest and most compassionate people I've met. For what it's worth, I think anyone would be lucky to have you on their unit, Anubis. I'm glad you are who you are.
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... thank you, Cobalt-san. I... really, thank you. That's really kind of you to say.
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No, he'd probably side with you. Gang up against me.
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... really, thank you.
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Seriously, though, I'm really glad you were able to talk to Nya and start making some inroads there, even if they were just little ones. Remember that even small progress is still progress.
Do you think there's a chance you guys might be able to talk more in the future?
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I don't know anything about the others you mentioned... Haven't met either Loki or Hera, and I only said hello to Santa once, I think. Is there a chance you guys might be able to bridge whatever divide that's between you?
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That's... probably more complicated. I want to think so, but I don't know Hera-san very well, and... Loki-san and Santa-san are very important to me, but they...
[trails off. what even to say.]
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