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Ah... There's someone in our unit who's kinda like that, too. He tries really hard to protect us but doesn't seem to understand how his actions affect others. He also believes that he's bad by nature, and therefore has less value than the rest of us. He thinks it doesn't matter if he gets hurt. It's really frustrating.

In Santa's case... maybe she's not used to being cared about, so she doesn't recognize it when she sees it...?

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Yeah, that sounds familiar. It is frustrating, especially when they're hurting themselves physically and emotionally.

[sighs]

Santa-san... she's had a really rough life. And I get that. But sometimes I think she's purposefully self-destructive.

[we_meet_again]

Well, you might be right. If she's had a rough life, and she's not used to being cared about, she really might be self-destructive. And if that's the case, then it's not fair to blame yourself for that. Her life history is not your fault, and you probably can't magically fix all her problems, no matter how hard you wish you could.

It's not your job to be her keeper. It's still good that you care about her, though. You can love a person without loving their behavior, and you can still support her and want to help her. But please make sure you don't destroy yourself in the process, you know?

[rollwillpowercheck]

[nods...]

I know. I just... I want my unit to, to be happy. Which I know is too much, but maybe to at least feel like they can be open with me. I guess it doesn't help that...

[trails off, with a sort of sad laugh.]

It seems really ironic that we're the "healing" team but I can't do anything about the things that are really hurting them.

[we_meet_again]

I'm not saying to give up on them. There probably are ways to help, or at least support them and be there when they need you.

I'm just suggesting that you set realistic expectations. If you expect yourself to be able to perform a miracle, anything short of that is going to feel like a failure. In reality, even helping in small ways is still really good.

Keeping that in mind, maybe there are some ways to start working on stuff like trust and communication? Since you said those have been a little rough lately.

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I've been trying to encourage communication for over a month, honestly. I've tried talking to everyone alone and as a group multiple times, I've bought books and games... things keep getting worse. I just-- I don't know.

I'm... sorry to dump this all on you.

[we_meet_again]

I don't mind at all. I wish I could be more helpful, though.

Again, I don't really know any of your unitmates and I don't know what kind of things you've already tried, so I'm sorry if I'm not very useful. But I sympathize with the position you're in... It's super hard to watch someone you care about get hurt and not know how to help them. I feel you.

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Mm, honestly, you've helped already. Just having someone to talk to... I appreciate it. Especially since it's mostly about people you don't know.

[we_meet_again]

I'm always happy to listen. It's the least I can do.

You're a good person, Anubis. I hope things get easier for you. For all of you.

[rollwillpowercheck]

Same to you, honestly. It's not really surprising that things have been... difficult for everyone, but... still.

[we_meet_again]

There's a lot of stuff to stress out about here, isn't there.

Well. All we can do is try our best. And, don't forget to take care of your own needs too, okay? When's the last time you went to the onsen?

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Oh, um... just a couple of days ago, actually. Nine and I were there on a date.

[we_meet_again]

Oh, excellent! You're already way ahead of me.

I hope it helped, at least a little!