[IMEEJI] Overflow

[rollwillpowercheck]

[my cup runneth over etc etc]

Comments

[liftoft]

Nah... I don't think anybody could tell you you're wrong for feelin' that way. It's bad enough knowing people'll join hell, but seeing them show back up here to run a game is totally something else.

[rollwillpowercheck]

Mm. I just wish seeing him didn't upset me so much... it feels like he has power over me that way, or something.

[liftoft]

Yeah, I get it! But the best way to not let him - or anyone - have power over you is to just admit you feel what you feel, and embrace it. Of course you're upset! It's not his win if you're upset, because who wouldn't be upset in this situation? You're alive, you've got a beating heart, so you're upset in situations that are upsetting! Fuck anybody who says different!

[rollwillpowercheck]

[manages a bit of a smile]

... thanks, X-san. You're right. Wishing that I don't feel something isn't going to make me stop feeling it, and it's not going to help, either.

[liftoft]

Exactly! Besides, you can be mad and still do everything you need to do. He can't keep you down!

[ shoulder pat pat... HAS... HE SEEN ANUBIS SMILE... usually he's talking to him in bad/sad/smad situations so maybe not. It's nice. ]

[rollwillpowercheck]

[good question, honestly. he does a lot of awkward/uncomfortable smiles or small smiles, but uh.]

All the same, I don't think this is a game I'm going to be playing to win.